Another Birthday

Well another Birthday has come and gone, in which means I'm getting older!!!!!!

My girlfriends and our children had all gotten together for a Birthday dinner since Michael wasn't here to do anything for me. I don't think we could laugh anymore then we did that night. It was so much fun that I wish we could have a dinner like that every night.

Thank you girls again, xoxox

I am blessed with such good friends and good drinks, lol.

The Birthday girl

Me and my pal that night, lol.

LaKrystal and I now both getting our drinks on. Whoot Whoot!!!!

Terri Lynn and I forever lovers

Kelly and cutie Gabe.

Gabe is the cutest little boy. I love him!!!! And I have decided he's my new boyfriend, Sorry Michael, lol.

Calista and I laughing it up and looking very cute.

Thank you ladies for coming and sharing my day with me. Love you all!!!

Dessert time!!!!!

The kids had taken over the dessert and LOVED IT!!!

Snow Days

Payton and Madison had so much playing in the 8 inches of snow we got over night. It was actually not that cold outside so we were able to play outside for a while before we had to go back in. I love it when it snows but I hate it when it starts melting and getting all yucky outside.

Terr Bear

They're aren't enough words that I can express about my bestfriend Terri Lynn.

I truly couldn't have gotten through that weekend with out her by my side. She was my saving grace and I am so grateful to have her in my life. She made sure the kids were doing ok and made sure they got what ever they needed.

She knew how help me through it all and all I can say is THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU.

Thank you guys

Michael had left almost 5 days before the rest of the guys did. Knowing Payton was sad that Michael had left and I was having a hard time, Michael's bestfriends Tony, Dusty, and Justin had come over everyday and spent time with us. Making sure we were ok and had everything we needed.

Justin played Wii with Payton everyday and made him actually forget that he was sad that daddy had just left and i will forever owe him for making my son laugh and happy when he needed it the most.

I couldn't have asked for a better group of guys to be Michael's friends. They truly are part of our family and it was just as hard saying goodbye to them as it was to Michael.

I miss every one of them everyday and I cant wait to have them home again.

How do you say goodbye?

I know I haven't done any blogs lately but knowing that I was going to have to write and think about that day Michael left has been hard for me. But I feel that maybe if I write about it, it will allow me to move on from that day.

I truly don't know if ill be able to write this blog without breaking down and crying. It is so hard to think about Michael not being here with me and the children.

This is our second deployment but it was so much harder this time saying goodbye. I feel like we had grew so much closer in the last 3-4 years and to not have him with me everyday or be able to talk to him, has really taken a toll on me. I thought I was going to be stronger but having to say good bye was the worst thing I have ever gone through. It was really tough on Michael and the kids as well. All I hope for is this year goes by fast and Michael comes home to us safe and sound.

Michael getting ready to leave. I knew I wouldn't be able to take him and drop him off, so Tony and Dusty came and got him.

My man looks so good in his new uniform.

Michael had written notes to us all and tried to read them but he couldn't do it with out breaking down so that night I read them to the children. I read Payton and Madison's notes to them every night before they go to sleep.

The worst moment of my life.
I don't think I need to say anymore about this picture.




The children saying goodbye at the door. I truly don't know how I was able to take this picture.

Packing, packing, and some more packing!

The time had come for Michael to start packing for his deployment.

It was so sad walking into our living room and seeing all the gear all over the room.

Maddy with Michael's helmet on.

Now it was Paytons turn.


The kids and I decided that we wanted daddy to pack us and we can all go together as a family but he told us no.