Payton is such a sweet, funny, kind, little man that I can't get enough of. Every day he is looking ore and more like his dad. And he says such funny things. He's my sunshine who can always make me smile even when I'm having a bad day. I love my little guy and i hope he never changes.

A STAR IS BORN

Madison has been taking ballet for the last year and it was finally recital time. She was so excited to have us come see her on a stage in front of every body. When we actually got there that morning to do a run through, Maddy was a little shocked to see how big the stage really was. She did such a great job and we are all so proud of our little ballerina.

Madison turns 6

Wow where did the time go? Our baby girl is growing up faster then we want. I can't believe she is 6 now. She has turned into everything Michael and I could of ever asked for in our little girl.


She loved her coconuts and grass skirt, hahaha

My little princess

Madison loves Justin Bieber so her daddy got her the barbie doll of him that sings. She was so excited!!!!!

Every body eating their pizza and enjoying the party.

Payton was alittle upset he only had two more tokens left.

Maddy's a first grader now!!!!!!

Where did our little girl go? I can't believe she is now in first grade.


I think Madison still looks like my baby in these photos. It was a cute surprise that the children took these pictures for thier parents and made the frames.

Madison was so happy and proud of herself.



My little princess with her cap on and her huge smile on her face.

It's about time!!!

Yes I know it has been many months since my
last blog, but I'm ready to make up for some lost time and start blogging again.

The last five months have been so hard on me and I'm still trying to figure out why. This is Michael's second deployment and living the army life style we are use to being apart. So I'm not sure why I'm still feeling lost and empty. I feel like I have lost my best friend, and I cant get over the sadness I feel for Michael and our children.
It was so different the first time Michael deployed, the kids were so young and had no clue where daddy was. They actually thought he lived in the computer and to be honest it was much easier. The days seemed like they went by faster and before I knew it, it was time for Michael to be home. But this time is completely different. Madison and Payton both know where their daddy is and what he is doing. Not because we told them but because they go to a school with other military children who talk. Where Michael is, there isn't much communication and seeing him over skype is far and few.

The worst part for me as a wife and a mother is seeing my family hurt. When Payton comes to me crying because he's had another nightmare about his daddy, or Maddy who cries just because she misses her so daddy so much. And when I see the pain in Michael's face from missing us, I don't know what to do. I pray everyday I could take all of their pains away from them and I wish I can stop the hurt but I cant and I hate that feeling. I'm trying everything in my power to make everything ok for everyone and I just keep saying a couple more months but my words aren't enough.

We are so proud of Michael and what he does. I don't want anyone to think for a second that I'm not supporting my husband or his job because I am, I just want my Michael home and safe with his family. I wish I was stronger emotionally for Michael. I'm trying my best but its really hard to be a single parent and do the job of a mommy and a daddy. And on top of that,take care of everything around the house and the car. I have to keep our life running as if Michael was here.Its alot of stress to handle. I worry all the time about Michael's safety, and everyday I think it could be the day I get that knock at my door and that would be the end of my world. I try to block that thought as much as I can because I know that Michael and I are going to grow old together and watch our children grow up and have their own children. I just wish he didn't have to be gone for a year.

I love my family and I know that this is part of our life and we will get through this. We will even be stronger because of all of it. I hope it starts to go by faster.

All Girl!!

My little Maddy loves doing all the girl things I do. When I go get my nails done, Madison comes and gets her done too. She loves it. I'm teaching her young as Michael would say.

Madison just got 6 inches cut off her hair and
she loves it! I think she looks so cute with short hair. But we will for sure be letting it grow out for Michael.

It finally felt like spring. So Terri, Kelly, and myself decided to take the kids to the park and let them go crazy. It was such a nice day. All the kids had alot of fun finally being able to get out and run around. Us mommys had fun chatting and enjoying some adult company.

Kelly and her boys Gabe and Gavin. Gabe is my little boyfriend who is just the cutest little boy and I love how adult he talks. It is so funny.

Why does my little boy look so grown up? Payton looks just like Michael in this picture.

Of course the girls are playing with eachother. They are just like sisters.





Cutie Gabe who looks just like his father. I have never seen a father and son who look so much alike.

My little princess.


Us mommys plus Gavin.

Family picture.

Terr bear and her one daughter Kaidance.

The park view

Girl Scouts

Maddy has started girl scouts and they had to do this presentation in front of alot of people and other girl scout troops. Our little princess learned her lines the night before and was the only one who didn't need to read off the paper. It was so cute.

I was so proud of Maddy.

Our Madison with big Madison. They are best friends in girl scouts.

The whole troop.

The Children's Place

I just love going shopping for my children. I have even more reasons now to shop because they have put a Children's Place in our mall and lets just say the opening week I had gone and spent way more then I think five people combined, lol.

When Michael was deployed last time, we had gotten him this carrier cup and had put pictures of our selves in it for him and he said he drank from it everyday and it had made him happy seeing us everyday. We kept the cup and when Michael deployed I knew I wanted to do the same for him. I had to wait for the pictures from snapfish but I think it turned out great and I know he'll love it.